Forgetting you.

I realized something important today: I don’t want to be angry anymore.  When I love, I wrap my entire body, soul and heart around that relationship and the promise of that love.  I expect too much, believe too hard and always wind up being disappointed in something that just could never be.  Love for me … Continue reading

Somewhere in the middle.

“Marco?”  Silence. “Marco??” Dead air. “Marco!”  Stillness.  Nope, no “Polo” to my “Marco.” It’s a never-ending game I play to locate the truth.  Where is the truth and more importantly, why is my truth always in hiding? I don’t know where I am right now.  As everyone walks their own path, I’m lost somewhere, straggling … Continue reading

I’m having a relationship with Chanel.

Isn’t she lovely?  Isn’t she wonderful?  OK, I know I’m channeling Stevie Wonder, but follow me here.  Yes, ‘it’ is actually a ‘she’ and yes, I’ve named this bag.  In fact, I’ve dreamed, obsessed and drooled over this perfectly pink, classic Chanel flap bag.  Those two shiny, interlocking Cs tease me in my dreams.  The … Continue reading

Do it Right.

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A round peg.

Today is my 25th birthday.  While I have to admit, I’ve been depressed thinking about hitting that dreaded quarter-century mark, today I am simply happy.  My 24th year was marked by unexpected changes. Tons of doors closed during the year, but even more opened, allowing me to run down a new, beautiful path.  My heart is filled with … Continue reading

Flying by the seat of my hot pants.

Some say the beautiful stages of life occur in a circle.  The cracked tiles of heartbreak and the renewed polished mile markers of growth and improvement all mold together to form a comprehensive, circular pattern of life’s fabric. On Friday, I will be 25, and while I feel blessed to have reached this mile marker … Continue reading

Pinch.

The simplicity of numbers can transform with ease into a symbolic pattern of love, memory or nostalgia.  Dates in their simplest form are just numbers, but when paired with the intricate workings of the heart, those numbers take on a beautiful pattern of meaning. I had a date in my mind.  A specific date for … Continue reading

“You musn’t be afraid to dream a little bigger, darling.”

Our life experiences shape our personal beliefs and convictions.  This blog has my name on it for a reason: because it is a forum for my opinions and thoughts.  I choose to share these sometimes very personal thoughts with the world in hopes that maybe I can reach someone who is facing a similar struggle … Continue reading

All I know.

I’ve been staring at these application questions for hours.  And they just stare right back, waiting for a response or a nudge that will signify I’m alive and full of capable answers to spark the beginning of my future.  Only, I’m not.  I’m frustrated, I’m tired and I’m slowly running out of energy to deal … Continue reading

The possibilities of Wonderland.

“So many roads. So many detours. So many choices. So many mistakes.” — Sex and the City I started this blog on Christmas day 2010.  A little over one year ago, I was struggling.  I was searching like a mad woman for answers that could never be uncovered by simply picking up a rock or … Continue reading