And down came the rain.

I found an old horoscope today and it read, “Find meaning in the storm.”  But what if I’m just tired of weathering storms?  I’m ready for a little sunshine in my life, yet it doesn’t seem to be in the cards right now.  I had hope and maybe hope is just weakness of the naive… … Continue reading

I love(d) you.

I made a mistake.  Without realizing it or even wishing for it, I fell in love.  Eight years ago I felt something I never expected to feel for someone I never saw coming into my life.  I loved him. I fought for him; I fought for us.  I fought for a future, for an “I … Continue reading

Sometimes it lasts in love…

You know how the time flies Only yesterday It was the time of our lives We were born and raised In a summer haze Bound by the surprise Of our glory days  

“Every great dream begins with a dreamer.”

“You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestation of your own blessings.”–Elizabeth Gilbert We all experience common dreams.  You know the kind where you’re plummeting from a 20-story building face first into the black night and as you brace yourself for the pain of the unknown you hear a faint ringing.  It’s your alarm clock … Continue reading

The Face of Abuse: One Year Later

Author’s Note:  Almost one year ago I wrote this article, never thinking it would be published or find the spotlight of recognition for other survivors.  For nearly a year, I have placed my hospital bracelet near my bed to remind me of a place I once visited and never wish to see again.  Sometimes in … Continue reading

I am Me.

  (Photo courtesy Smashapps.org) “Are you still you?” she asked.  I didn’t know how to answer.  Am I still the exuberant, hopeless romantic little girl I once was?  The brown-eyed, full-hearted girl that dreamt too big and loved too much?  I just didn’t know.  It was in reflecting the fellow narcissistic abuse survivor’s question that … Continue reading

“It took a while to understand the beauty of just letting go”

“If you don’t want me to write bad songs about you, then don’t do bad things.” (–Taylor Swift) My eyes burned.  Crouched in a pool of tears, I couldn’t see—life and everything around me had suddenly become so blurry.  What just happened and how did I get here?  That Sunday morning began like any other: … Continue reading

Mirror, Mirror on the wall…

“Everyone thinks that I have it all But it’s so empty living behind these castle walls If I should tumble if I should fall Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls There’s no-one here at all, behind these castle walls” (Christina Aguilera/T.I. “Castle Walls”) Like most little girls, I dreamed to live … Continue reading

A Woman in Search of Her Word…

I am 23 and nearly one half of my life has been intertwined and melted into a bottomless pool of infatuation for one boy or another.  I am 23 and one third of my precious youth has been unjustly claimed by the hands of abuse.  I am 23 and I am word-less.  It was in … Continue reading