Inside the glass jar.

I’ve always loved fireflies.  The glitter of their sparkle, the freedom of their flight, fireflies amazed me.  As a child, my sister and I would catch them in glass jars to watch their beautiful bulbs glow in the silky darkness.  Now, at 24, however, I commiserate with the light bulbs of the night.  They were … Continue reading

A closet of memories

Today I realized I have a soft heart and a hard time letting go… of everything, really.  A state of OCD kicked in earlier this morning and I began color coordinating my closet—yes, I just admitted that.  Summer classes finally wrapped last week and rather than go out with my girls one more day and … Continue reading

My personal “instructions for freedom”

Sometimes lessons can show themselves in the most obvious of ways… but other times it takes the darkness of change to shed light on life’s much-needed memos of growth.  My Year in Lessons… 1.   The true meaning of a soul mate… “People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. … Continue reading

The Face of Abuse: One Year Later

Author’s Note:  Almost one year ago I wrote this article, never thinking it would be published or find the spotlight of recognition for other survivors.  For nearly a year, I have placed my hospital bracelet near my bed to remind me of a place I once visited and never wish to see again.  Sometimes in … Continue reading

“Ruin is the Road to Transformation.”

Excerpted from  Eat, Pray, Love: “On my way back home I take a little detour and stop at the address in Rome I find most strangely affecting – the Augusteum. This big, round, ruined pile of brick started life as a glorious mausoleum, built by Octavian Augustus to house his remains and the remains of … Continue reading

I am Me.

  (Photo courtesy Smashapps.org) “Are you still you?” she asked.  I didn’t know how to answer.  Am I still the exuberant, hopeless romantic little girl I once was?  The brown-eyed, full-hearted girl that dreamt too big and loved too much?  I just didn’t know.  It was in reflecting the fellow narcissistic abuse survivor’s question that … Continue reading

V-Day is ‘Me-Day’

For all the amazing women out there, plant your own garden and be your own Valentine “Comes the Dawn” Veronica A. Shoffstall After a while you learn the subtle difference Between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning, and company doesn’t mean security, and you begin to … Continue reading

Mirror, Mirror on the wall…

“Everyone thinks that I have it all But it’s so empty living behind these castle walls If I should tumble if I should fall Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls There’s no-one here at all, behind these castle walls” (Christina Aguilera/T.I. “Castle Walls”) Like most little girls, I dreamed to live … Continue reading

Babies, Break-ups and a Little Spare Change

I didn’t know how to react.  The news crushed me like a steamroller, leaving me breathless and exhausted.  A mix of emotions swirled around my head and I wasn’t quite sure which to embrace.  Was I happy or maybe angry?  Excited, or envious?  As ego-bending Nostalgia came to sweep me away in memories of the … Continue reading