The greater the risk, the greater the beauty.

“For me, writing is about control. Or, more accurately, loss of control. Maybe you are a writer, and you disagree because writing for you feels more like walking on the beach or getting a massage. Well, maybe you and I should never meet for coffee. Writing for me feels like getting naked in public. And writing is … Continue reading

Pinch.

The simplicity of numbers can transform with ease into a symbolic pattern of love, memory or nostalgia.  Dates in their simplest form are just numbers, but when paired with the intricate workings of the heart, those numbers take on a beautiful pattern of meaning. I had a date in my mind.  A specific date for … Continue reading

The possibilities of Wonderland.

“So many roads. So many detours. So many choices. So many mistakes.” — Sex and the City I started this blog on Christmas day 2010.  A little over one year ago, I was struggling.  I was searching like a mad woman for answers that could never be uncovered by simply picking up a rock or … Continue reading

A grateful good riddance.

Two weeks ago I was in New York City.  I had the time of my life playing in the city that never sleeps.  Shopping, eating, window shopping, eating, visiting tourist sites – did I mention eating?  I had the opportunity to live up my Carrie Bradshaw fantasies while posing for pictures outside her apartment stairs … Continue reading

An open letter.

I don’t know how to say goodbye to you.  I think guilt has kept you here with me.  I feel responsible for leading you into a great love followed by an even greater pain.  I guess I’ve figured that holding onto you like a security blanket will somehow keep you with me always and will … Continue reading

Crazy little thing…

Our story was special.  I didn’t trust it. Our love was surprising.  I didn’t understand it. You swept me away.  I didn’t trust you. A chapter ended.  I couldn’t understand it. A new chapter began.  How do I trust it? Love is a crazy entity and lately I’ve been realizing the depth of its insanity.  … Continue reading

To whom it may concern.

I look for inspiration everywhere and today it came from a close friend.  If you’ve read my past few entries, it’s pretty clear that I’m in desperate need of a little hope or sunshine to spread some light on a dark situation.  Today, my friend reminded me that such hope comes from within. Each time … Continue reading

Like Shattered Glass.

We all experience the déjà vu of recurring dreams… but what about the horror of recurring nightmares? For the last few years, I have struggled to wake up.  Welcome to my recurring nightmare.  In this show of horrors, I’m screaming, shouting at the top of my sore lungs, but nothing comes out.  I fight to … Continue reading

And down came the rain.

I found an old horoscope today and it read, “Find meaning in the storm.”  But what if I’m just tired of weathering storms?  I’m ready for a little sunshine in my life, yet it doesn’t seem to be in the cards right now.  I had hope and maybe hope is just weakness of the naive… … Continue reading

Damaged Goods.

Do you ever just have one of those days?  You know the kind: a day in which nothing particularly devastating occurs, yet you could cry, on cue, for no reason?  Welcome to my Tuesday.  As I look in the mirror, I’m ready to cry.  Is it because I don’t like what I see or who … Continue reading