“I wish they would all just disappear.”

I’ve been a Christmas crank lately.  My bah-humbug, Grinch-ly attitude is a huge disappointment considering how much I love the Christmas season.  I live for this season and the beautiful magic of it all.  The food, the decorations, the spirit, the wonderful company – it all usually leaves me feeling full-hearted and so grateful.  But … Continue reading

And down came the rain.

I found an old horoscope today and it read, “Find meaning in the storm.”  But what if I’m just tired of weathering storms?  I’m ready for a little sunshine in my life, yet it doesn’t seem to be in the cards right now.  I had hope and maybe hope is just weakness of the naive… … Continue reading

Stand with me.

My life is a revolving door.  I watch new people burst through the entrance of my life with as much intensity and excitement as others have dashing for the exit.  Who said this turnstile was a free-for-all, anyway?  I’ve realized I’m still that innate hopefully optimistic child who can’t wait to meet her next best … Continue reading

Three Chapters

Every love story begins with three simple words: I love you.  Every love story has three chapters: a beginning, a middle and an ending.  And although most love stories follow nature’s sequence of chapters, I’m still surprised our love story didn’t last forever.  Things happen, people change and a split-second decision can forever alter the … Continue reading

I’m bringing [Jordan] back…

Sometimes I wonder: Will anyone ever understand me the way my ex did?  OK, I can already pinpoint this thought as a distorted cognition caused by the cognitive dissonance I feel as a survivor of abuse, but bear with me on my disillusioned trip to La La Land. Fact: I was only 16 when I … Continue reading

Baby, are you a firework?

“I loved you grey sweat pants, no makeup, so perfect Our love was, comfortable and so broken in she’s perfect, so flawless I’m not impressed, I want you back.” As my girlfriend and I were cruising back from another hazy, yet tan-fulfilled beach day, she regaled stories about her relationship with her boyfriend.  Her giggles … Continue reading

Can we still be friends?

My Dearest Cleveland, It’s been a fun ride.  I’ve given you 24 years and now I’m ready for something more.  It’s true–I’ve cheated.  I have a new romance in my life… I’ve been fantasizing about the bright lights of the unknown. I love you, but I’m not in love with you and I feel as though we … Continue reading

What colors will you paint the world?

“Most of us, no matter what we say, are walking in the dark, whistling in the dark. Nobody knows what is going to happen to him from one moment to the next, or how one will bear it. This is irreducible. And it’s true of everybody. Now, it is true that the nature of society … Continue reading

“Something about this place…”

“It’s been a long time since I came around It’s been a long time but I’m back in town And this time I’m not leaving without you You taste like whiskey when you kiss me all I’d give anything again to be your baby doll And this time I’m not leaving without you.”     

Nothing comes between me and my… yoga mat?

“Someday you’re gonna look back on this moment of your life as such a sweet time of grieving. You’ll see that you were in mourning and your heart was broken, but your life was changing and you were in the best possible place in the world for it – in a beautiful place of worship, … Continue reading