Forgetting you.

I realized something important today: I don’t want to be angry anymore.  When I love, I wrap my entire body, soul and heart around that relationship and the promise of that love.  I expect too much, believe too hard and always wind up being disappointed in something that just could never be.  Love for me … Continue reading

Somewhere in the middle.

“Marco?”  Silence. “Marco??” Dead air. “Marco!”  Stillness.  Nope, no “Polo” to my “Marco.” It’s a never-ending game I play to locate the truth.  Where is the truth and more importantly, why is my truth always in hiding? I don’t know where I am right now.  As everyone walks their own path, I’m lost somewhere, straggling … Continue reading

Dancing alone.

I have to admit, I’ve been on a small hiatus as of late.  Mother Nature’s constant mood swings have left me feeling blasé and my newfound obsession with pinterest.com has fulfilled my constant need for creative purging.  So, needless to say, writing has taken the back seat… until today that is. Leave it to Facebook … Continue reading

An invisible pain.

I think being taken for granted by someone you love is perhaps the worst kind of emotional pain you can feel.  You can be his best friend, his confidante and the person he misses the most and yet it means nothing when you’re in a room full of people.  He chooses to put you in … Continue reading

“I wish they would all just disappear.”

I’ve been a Christmas crank lately.  My bah-humbug, Grinch-ly attitude is a huge disappointment considering how much I love the Christmas season.  I live for this season and the beautiful magic of it all.  The food, the decorations, the spirit, the wonderful company – it all usually leaves me feeling full-hearted and so grateful.  But … Continue reading

A grateful good riddance.

Two weeks ago I was in New York City.  I had the time of my life playing in the city that never sleeps.  Shopping, eating, window shopping, eating, visiting tourist sites – did I mention eating?  I had the opportunity to live up my Carrie Bradshaw fantasies while posing for pictures outside her apartment stairs … Continue reading

Crazy little thing…

Our story was special.  I didn’t trust it. Our love was surprising.  I didn’t understand it. You swept me away.  I didn’t trust you. A chapter ended.  I couldn’t understand it. A new chapter began.  How do I trust it? Love is a crazy entity and lately I’ve been realizing the depth of its insanity.  … Continue reading

To whom it may concern.

I look for inspiration everywhere and today it came from a close friend.  If you’ve read my past few entries, it’s pretty clear that I’m in desperate need of a little hope or sunshine to spread some light on a dark situation.  Today, my friend reminded me that such hope comes from within. Each time … Continue reading

Damaged Goods.

Do you ever just have one of those days?  You know the kind: a day in which nothing particularly devastating occurs, yet you could cry, on cue, for no reason?  Welcome to my Tuesday.  As I look in the mirror, I’m ready to cry.  Is it because I don’t like what I see or who … Continue reading

Blow the candles out…

Two years ago, I blew the candles out… Two years later, I was walking behind him… nearly running, in fact.  And this is how it was: always lagging behind, always trying to follow his big steps, only my legs couldn’t reach and there I was, left behind.  We were young.  We didn’t know what we … Continue reading