Settle for nothing but dreams.

“I’m a really big believer that we all have this voice inside of us, and that voice is God talking to us, and we are all magical, and we all have something as specific to do as our fingerprint. And everybody should go out and do that. And I think between the ages of 15 … Continue reading

An invisible pain.

I think being taken for granted by someone you love is perhaps the worst kind of emotional pain you can feel.  You can be his best friend, his confidante and the person he misses the most and yet it means nothing when you’re in a room full of people.  He chooses to put you in … Continue reading

“I wish they would all just disappear.”

I’ve been a Christmas crank lately.  My bah-humbug, Grinch-ly attitude is a huge disappointment considering how much I love the Christmas season.  I live for this season and the beautiful magic of it all.  The food, the decorations, the spirit, the wonderful company – it all usually leaves me feeling full-hearted and so grateful.  But … Continue reading

A grateful good riddance.

Two weeks ago I was in New York City.  I had the time of my life playing in the city that never sleeps.  Shopping, eating, window shopping, eating, visiting tourist sites – did I mention eating?  I had the opportunity to live up my Carrie Bradshaw fantasies while posing for pictures outside her apartment stairs … Continue reading

An open letter.

I don’t know how to say goodbye to you.  I think guilt has kept you here with me.  I feel responsible for leading you into a great love followed by an even greater pain.  I guess I’ve figured that holding onto you like a security blanket will somehow keep you with me always and will … Continue reading

Making it count.

My friends never cease to surprise me.  Somehow, in some amazing way, they are always there when I’m in need of a really good, nurturing, soothe-your-soul girl talk.  Last night was no exception.  Into the early hours of the morning, I spent time spilling my heart to a friend who I’ve been missing since she … Continue reading

Crazy little thing…

Our story was special.  I didn’t trust it. Our love was surprising.  I didn’t understand it. You swept me away.  I didn’t trust you. A chapter ended.  I couldn’t understand it. A new chapter began.  How do I trust it? Love is a crazy entity and lately I’ve been realizing the depth of its insanity.  … Continue reading

To whom it may concern.

I look for inspiration everywhere and today it came from a close friend.  If you’ve read my past few entries, it’s pretty clear that I’m in desperate need of a little hope or sunshine to spread some light on a dark situation.  Today, my friend reminded me that such hope comes from within. Each time … Continue reading

Like Shattered Glass.

We all experience the déjà vu of recurring dreams… but what about the horror of recurring nightmares? For the last few years, I have struggled to wake up.  Welcome to my recurring nightmare.  In this show of horrors, I’m screaming, shouting at the top of my sore lungs, but nothing comes out.  I fight to … Continue reading