Stand with me.

My life is a revolving door.  I watch new people burst through the entrance of my life with as much intensity and excitement as others have dashing for the exit.  Who said this turnstile was a free-for-all, anyway?  I’ve realized I’m still that innate hopefully optimistic child who can’t wait to meet her next best … Continue reading

A Beautiful Balancing Act

“To find the balance you want, this is what you must become. You must keep your feet grounded so firmly on the earth that it’s like you have four legs instead of two. That way, you can stay in the world. But you must stop looking at the world through your head. You must look … Continue reading

I love(d) you.

I made a mistake.  Without realizing it or even wishing for it, I fell in love.  Eight years ago I felt something I never expected to feel for someone I never saw coming into my life.  I loved him. I fought for him; I fought for us.  I fought for a future, for an “I … Continue reading

Someday

Control is a tricky thing.  Some people strive for it, some live under it and others are blinded by it.  But what is it about this entity that makes humans both shudder and salivate? These days I can spot a control freak a mile away.  It’s as if I’m standing in a room of Chanel … Continue reading

A Lasting Love Affair

Since I was three, I knew what I wanted to do in life.  Yes, you read that correctly, a three year old with goals on her mind… it happens.  Around the table of a family dinner, an aunt asked all of the children what they wanted to be when they grew up.  Among the chatter … Continue reading

“I walked a mile with Sorrow”

I walked a mile with Pleasure; She chatted all the way; But left me none the wiser For all she had to say. I walked a mile with Sorrow, And ne’er a word said she; But, oh! The things I learned from her, When sorrow walked with me. -Robert Browning Hamilton What develops character and … Continue reading

I need a man…

I need a man… who can pick me up when I fall, but allow me to stand strong, on my own. I need a man… who I can trust to keep me close, but who trusts me to be free. I need a man… who wipes away my tears, but never causes them to fall … Continue reading

“A good book has no ending.”

I was happy this past weekend.  Simply happy.  My weekend was similar to amazing memories of days gone by, only more mature and somehow better than the beginning.  I went to Toronto where I gorged myself on menus of yummy treats and shopped until my heart’s content.  It was amazing.  It was me –- it … Continue reading

A Writer’s Contradiction

The writer’s greed is appalling. He wants, or seems to want, everything and practically everybody, in another sense, and at the same time, he needs no one at all. — James Baldwin

My journey has been a lesson. I’ve learned:

How to depend on no one but myself. How to find my own path to happiness. How to seek the truth and find it, rather than settling for a lie. How to find beauty in the dark times and appreciate the climb. How to believe in the beauty and grace of love. How to find security … Continue reading